A blinding epiphany
Encorcelled that's the only explanation..
Here I am been in a very strange relationship for a long time now. Last night I wake up at what's becoming my accustomed time of 3:30 - now it's not really wakin' up, it more like my mind wakes up but my body is still asleep. Anyway I'm lying there basically paralised because my body is asleep and I start thinking about why I can't move on with my life even though it's been like a year and a half with nothing likely to change either way anytime soon!
Then I start thinking about the Link that I've been taking for granted for the past 5 or so years. Up until last night all the strange and "wonderful" shit that was part of the relationship seemed normal and natural.. Perhaps it is.
Perhaps there are people out there that can literary make a connection to someone else, the problem comes when they don't want or don't know how to remove it.
For example:
Imagine Roxy a lovely but lonely girl finds a guy and marries him. All is going swimmingly she's a trophy wife, put up on a pedestal and twirling around like a ballerina in a music box for everyone to look at. She doesn't get out much, but that's fine, cos he goes out a lot. And now and then she feels and maybe takes part in what he's experiencing. So far so good?
So one day after many years of refining her talent but never telling anyone about it - She did that once and was thoroughly chastised so she never mentioned it again. It has however become quite natural people just seem to become addicted to her and she has no idea why. She doesn't have the same connection that she does with the husband, that takes much longer to develop than the casual tentacle that is brushes against the people that she wants to like her.
No. For some reason that no one can fathom people just become addicted to her. Her mother says that all the time. Nothing wrong with that we say, rather nice really, "I think I've got something similar..". Maybe. Maybe not.
Anyway back to our story. One day Roxy is minding her own business when she meets this guy. They talk and over time they become friends then eventually more. Unlike the other people that she's met over the years he too has a similar talent as she does. This has an interesting side effect, at times they can share from each other. She's had a rough night but needs some extra energy for work, she can borrow from him and visa versa. Oh, and if your into that sort of thing it turns out that there biorhythms match, not close not near now and then but match day to day moment to moment for as long as you specify. Very strange.
Now years later and the three of them - oh didn't I mention that she is still with the husband, he's still obsessed with her of course, she has a connection to him that must huge after such a long acquaintance. She can't seem to let him go, no matter how the other guy begs and pleads, no matter how she tries to convince herself, she can't let go. He's become like a favorite pet.
Finally the other guy has enough and ends it, or at least he presumes he has.
A year after the separation he hasn't moved on! He has no idea why!
She has of course, well not really, she says that the Husband is harassing her, but in actuality he still thinks there's hope of reconciliation as does the other guy - now. Meanwhile she is making new friends and her life is moving on. She goes back every week or so and calls her devoted followers, I suppose they should be called now.
Ahh the Followers, how what a sad lot they have become. Bemoaning her in one breath and praying that she will call in the next. Horribly disappointed when she doesn't and blissfully happy when she does.
I can imagine some of you reading this and shaking your heads and wondering if I'm writing for and episode of the twilight Zone.
Sorry I digress again..
So here we are at the situation today. The other guy is sitting there are 3:30 in the morning thinking about the link. He's had a couple of beers earlier and everones telling him that he should have moved on a long time ago and shouldn't but stuck in this rut. So he starts to try and cut the connection. He's actually just feeling around inside himself until he feels her strongest and then trying to imagine cutting it off. It doesn't work of course but he suddenly realises that he's heard of this before.
*grin*
Here I am been in a very strange relationship for a long time now. Last night I wake up at what's becoming my accustomed time of 3:30 - now it's not really wakin' up, it more like my mind wakes up but my body is still asleep. Anyway I'm lying there basically paralised because my body is asleep and I start thinking about why I can't move on with my life even though it's been like a year and a half with nothing likely to change either way anytime soon!
Then I start thinking about the Link that I've been taking for granted for the past 5 or so years. Up until last night all the strange and "wonderful" shit that was part of the relationship seemed normal and natural.. Perhaps it is.
Perhaps there are people out there that can literary make a connection to someone else, the problem comes when they don't want or don't know how to remove it.
For example:
Imagine Roxy a lovely but lonely girl finds a guy and marries him. All is going swimmingly she's a trophy wife, put up on a pedestal and twirling around like a ballerina in a music box for everyone to look at. She doesn't get out much, but that's fine, cos he goes out a lot. And now and then she feels and maybe takes part in what he's experiencing. So far so good?
So one day after many years of refining her talent but never telling anyone about it - She did that once and was thoroughly chastised so she never mentioned it again. It has however become quite natural people just seem to become addicted to her and she has no idea why. She doesn't have the same connection that she does with the husband, that takes much longer to develop than the casual tentacle that is brushes against the people that she wants to like her.
No. For some reason that no one can fathom people just become addicted to her. Her mother says that all the time. Nothing wrong with that we say, rather nice really, "I think I've got something similar..". Maybe. Maybe not.
Anyway back to our story. One day Roxy is minding her own business when she meets this guy. They talk and over time they become friends then eventually more. Unlike the other people that she's met over the years he too has a similar talent as she does. This has an interesting side effect, at times they can share from each other. She's had a rough night but needs some extra energy for work, she can borrow from him and visa versa. Oh, and if your into that sort of thing it turns out that there biorhythms match, not close not near now and then but match day to day moment to moment for as long as you specify. Very strange.
Now years later and the three of them - oh didn't I mention that she is still with the husband, he's still obsessed with her of course, she has a connection to him that must huge after such a long acquaintance. She can't seem to let him go, no matter how the other guy begs and pleads, no matter how she tries to convince herself, she can't let go. He's become like a favorite pet.
Finally the other guy has enough and ends it, or at least he presumes he has.
A year after the separation he hasn't moved on! He has no idea why!
She has of course, well not really, she says that the Husband is harassing her, but in actuality he still thinks there's hope of reconciliation as does the other guy - now. Meanwhile she is making new friends and her life is moving on. She goes back every week or so and calls her devoted followers, I suppose they should be called now.
Ahh the Followers, how what a sad lot they have become. Bemoaning her in one breath and praying that she will call in the next. Horribly disappointed when she doesn't and blissfully happy when she does.
I can imagine some of you reading this and shaking your heads and wondering if I'm writing for and episode of the twilight Zone.
Sorry I digress again..
So here we are at the situation today. The other guy is sitting there are 3:30 in the morning thinking about the link. He's had a couple of beers earlier and everones telling him that he should have moved on a long time ago and shouldn't but stuck in this rut. So he starts to try and cut the connection. He's actually just feeling around inside himself until he feels her strongest and then trying to imagine cutting it off. It doesn't work of course but he suddenly realises that he's heard of this before.
*grin*
posted by Krave at 11:38
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