Great Day, Crap Evening, Good night
Bought a Grill. As it turns out it's a very big grill. In point of fact I could probably roast a whole sheep on it like they used to do in the old days!
It's not right when you purchase and item and are intimidated by it.
Alright. I'm bandying about the bush.
I was driving home last night looking forward to building the monster grill, when the phone goes off, which in itself is unusual, since nobody calls me. It turns out to be X.
I have one a moment of strength, then cave and answer it. Immediately there's a massive rush of pain, and despair. Then she starts talking and it just gets worse, she's in a bad way. Hang on. Before ya start saying "Oh crap here he goes, he's going to fall off the wagon and he's gonna ask her round give her therapy. Again!"
I'm not and didn't. I listened to her accuse me of not calling to tell her that I was back - like I'd promise to call her when I said that I wasn't going to call her till September - then all the grief that's happening at her work. When I didn't jump in with helpful advise and sweet reason, except to say that "they will use you up and dispose of you if you let them". She said "Oh your in a bad mood, I'll let you go" and hung up after abrupt goodbyes.
Sufficed to say that the Grill building though fulfilling and all that I should have been, what with knowing that she desperatly needs me as a crutch and me just as desperatly knowing that if I make the call, one of two equally bad things will happen.
1. She'll say it's ok and not to bother. In which case I end up convincing her that it's not ok and promptly shore her up for a week or two, in which I won't hear a peep from her, till the next incident.
2. I convince her to come round for a chat. Now although there will be no sex, there will be the obligortary back rub to too calm her down and allow her to talk it all out. Where's the problem with that you say.. With anyone else, there wouldn't be a problem. With X however it would reastablish the "link".
After spending the weekend away and finally seeing the light at the end of the year and half tunnel of pining, she calls and the weekend is wiped away and I want to drown it all out again.
Well some of you must be thinkin' what a bloody miserable bastard you are Mr. Nicotine.
Well. Sometimes.
Just so ya know it wasn't all bad, I actually found out the neibours names and sat on the stoop with a beer and chatted and that.. Good God his wife is hot... *grin* Turns out that there like 25 or somethin' stupid. Stupid because here I am at 38 and I only just got myself a house and stuff.. *sigh*
Nice folks though.
It's not right when you purchase and item and are intimidated by it.
Alright. I'm bandying about the bush.
I was driving home last night looking forward to building the monster grill, when the phone goes off, which in itself is unusual, since nobody calls me. It turns out to be X.
I have one a moment of strength, then cave and answer it. Immediately there's a massive rush of pain, and despair. Then she starts talking and it just gets worse, she's in a bad way. Hang on. Before ya start saying "Oh crap here he goes, he's going to fall off the wagon and he's gonna ask her round give her therapy. Again!"
I'm not and didn't. I listened to her accuse me of not calling to tell her that I was back - like I'd promise to call her when I said that I wasn't going to call her till September - then all the grief that's happening at her work. When I didn't jump in with helpful advise and sweet reason, except to say that "they will use you up and dispose of you if you let them". She said "Oh your in a bad mood, I'll let you go" and hung up after abrupt goodbyes.
Sufficed to say that the Grill building though fulfilling and all that I should have been, what with knowing that she desperatly needs me as a crutch and me just as desperatly knowing that if I make the call, one of two equally bad things will happen.
1. She'll say it's ok and not to bother. In which case I end up convincing her that it's not ok and promptly shore her up for a week or two, in which I won't hear a peep from her, till the next incident.
2. I convince her to come round for a chat. Now although there will be no sex, there will be the obligortary back rub to too calm her down and allow her to talk it all out. Where's the problem with that you say.. With anyone else, there wouldn't be a problem. With X however it would reastablish the "link".
After spending the weekend away and finally seeing the light at the end of the year and half tunnel of pining, she calls and the weekend is wiped away and I want to drown it all out again.
Well some of you must be thinkin' what a bloody miserable bastard you are Mr. Nicotine.
Well. Sometimes.
Just so ya know it wasn't all bad, I actually found out the neibours names and sat on the stoop with a beer and chatted and that.. Good God his wife is hot... *grin* Turns out that there like 25 or somethin' stupid. Stupid because here I am at 38 and I only just got myself a house and stuff.. *sigh*
Nice folks though.
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